Lonestar State, you get me.

Things I Miss About You:

I miss the rain. The sky would get dark and you just knew it was coming. I miss driving in the rain, running through the rain, smelling the rain. I even miss the days it didn't rain but pretended it might.

I miss the roadways. For the most part everyone drove rather sensibly. The ones that didn't were probably from New Mexico. I could generally get from A to B without much fuss and without too many swear words.

I miss the food. You can get sweet tea most anywhere you go. I miss the bread and even the Tex-Mex. I miss the hysterics over fried fried food that came from Chance and Bryce's mouths. I miss barbeque. I miss sushi.

I miss Debbie. Debbie was so comforting and such a good friend. She was so level-headed when I talked about my problems. I miss her cooking and I really miss her cinnamon coffee. I miss the days I came home and a bunch of candles were lit and she was sitting in the living watching old episodes of Bewitched. I miss going to garage sales and driving around listening to the oldies station. I miss her zeal for life.

I miss my sister and her crazy family. She was always up for most anything. If I needed someone to join me for lunch or a day out she was there. I miss L, R, and Q. They are growing up without me. I miss making forts in my closet. I miss them asking if they can help me cook. I miss Q looking up at me as if asking me to pick her up. I miss the girls splashing while in the bath. I miss being waken by, "HEY, Aunt Cass." I miss Mark calling me dude and homie and stuff like that.

I miss all the action. Horse races, the circus, Disney on ice, going to shows, lunch with Barb, basketball games, Six Flags, going to Longview, going to Houston, going mini-golfing. There was always something to do.

I miss living on my own. I miss quiet nights at home. I miss staying up late. I miss getting up early. I miss sitting on the balcony on a dark summer night. I miss driving with my windows down on the way to work.

I miss you. I'll see you soon.

Me too.

Today I was thinking about things I want vs. things I need. I'm hoping to move soon, so I've got money on the brain. Ran across this cute reflection.

Need v. Want, by Laurie Smith, 2003

I need to nourish, fuel and vitalize.
I want Finney’s chips and a patty melt.

I need to be hydrated.
I want to bob around with a margarita in my hand.

I need protection from the elements.
I want a century old Victorian on 10 acres.

I need a way to get from here to there.
I want a 2003 Expedition, white, Eddie Bauer package.

I need to feed my soul.
I want to finish this book despite the unfolded laundry.

I need to cleanse, refresh, and wake up.
I want to stay curled up next to him for ten more minutes.

I need to let her go.
I want to clutch her tightly to me forever.

I need to allow them the chance to fail.
I want to share the secret.

I need to visit my parents.
I want to tell them I understand.

I need to teach.
I want to educate.

I need to learn.
I want to know.

I need to know God.
I want to experience Him.

I need to acknowledge the passage of time.
I want to age gracefully.

I need to leave this place for another.
I want to have it matter that I was here.

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ohJanuary 20th. A new day for America.

go fish!

so...this is the picture of the day. my sister and i were having lunch at chili's today. she picked up a chip and said, "look! it's a fish!" i had to take a picture...

Photo Blog

I was looking at some fun tips for blogging yesterday and came across a great idea: Take a picture and post it everyday. Now, I don't know if I'll be diligent enough to actually take pictures everyday, but I'll post as often as I remember. Right now my camera is broken so I'm having to use my camera phone. I'm a little bummed out about that, but I figured I shouldn't let it hinder my fun, right?!

Here's today's photo:

A bottle of happiness!

Wow! You MUST check out the website Learning to Love You More! I just discovered it and I have found a new love! I'll have to try some of the assignments on here. Right now I'm looking at assignment #14: Write your life story in less than a day. There's some funny ones like "Make a Child's Outfit in an Adult's Size" and some ones that make you think, like "Write a Phone Call You Wish You Could Have". Check out this site. It's so great!

2008

I saw that someone had done this and it inspired me to give it a try:

Last year...

I had my first birthday without my twin, Kayla.

  I realized it was okay for me to be content in New Mexico.

    My niece Quinn was born.  

      I realized I'm sort of artsy/crafty.

        I lost some of my interest in books.

          I read a few books about writing.

            I got hooked on TV on DVD.

              I got a new car.

                I met lots of new people that I just adore.

                  I got a new job.

                  I went on a real date.

                    I realized maybe I am likable.

                     I was given a bird.

                        I let that bird go free.

                           I rang in the new year with some of my favorite friends and family.

Seriously, last year was a great year. I grew up a bit and learned a lot. Life progresses and I am thankful for that. Oh so thankful.  :)

Consider the Ravens

i'm waiting. and i can't say i'm not anxious. cuz i am.

i just want some answers and some hope.

seems like these days i'm just living to pass the hours.

life's a bit redundant. i'm ready for an adventure.

i hope that my adventure at least pans out to be a bit of what i'm hoping for.

but i suppose it's in my hands to make it happen.

i don't know what will happen with the people i meet or the people i already know.

but i'm honestly excited and super anxious at the same time.

care-free but cautious.

trusting but absolutely faltering.

Lord, help me.