I Feel Like An Official Failure.

Alright.

I feel like a real big stoop.

I have no idea what I’m doing!

I feel like a mouse trapped in a maze.

I just told my boss at my part-time office job that I want to work full time.

And now… Now I am freaking out.

What am I thinking?

I don’t even like it here!

I’m going to turn down a part time job that I just got yesterday.

And that job seems pretty decent.

But I’m scared.

Money is the issue.

My shoulders are tense from this job.

Why do I want it?

I don’t know if I can make it last anyway…

And why, oh why, do I ask for the opinions of others?

I just want them to make my decision for me.

BUT when I follow their lead blindly I am never happy with where I end up.

What are they to do with a girl like me?